Baltimore Pride Abecedarian by Yasmine Bolden
Bless the homegirl whose purse pockets naloxone, water, and grandma candies.
Baltimore Pride Abecedarian
An ancestry of belonging to anyone but ourselves ends here. Bends beneath my binder and swells into a syncopated call and response that begins: all Black trans survival is improvizational jazz. Nearly dies on my lips while I’m singing with sapphics entering the Pink Pony Club. Is made a deer in headlights by faces that can Anansi spider, sliding between boy girl boy girl. Whatever we do, we know we have to remember everything. We could be tipsy indolent after sad twerking to Southern hip-hop or joaning in a way that’s code for: I love you pink-soft and red-hot. Several Konas and bisexual cocktails in, we’d still look for the wide-eyed form of our most hurting histories. Bless the homegirl whose purse pockets naloxone, water, and grandma candies. Who opens her palms, taking her place on the right hand side of the road, waiting. Who takes being the queer salt of the earth seriously. Whose rage could rival God’s. Whose pride holds my sweaty hand in the hospital where I misgender myself, at the parade where everyone knows and understands both of my names: the one I was given and the one I wasn’t allowed to have. Voracious is the only word to describe the way my ancestors must’ve felt. I know it from the way I’ve got to be capital X xtra as soon as May and June kiss again. You can feel a hunger that ripples through my lineage. A zest wild and horned and all our own.
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First published in Baltimore Beat, June 4, 2025. Reprinted with permission of the author.